Ugly prayer turned pretty
Ugly prayer turned pretty
God, I am attempting to draw near to you, I know that in order to do so a lot of shit needs to be drained out of my life. I seemed to have clogged up at some point.
Call it depression, call it exhaustion, call it caregiver burnout, call it what you want. I’ve lived numb for a while, but now you are awakening me. My limbs tingle, there’s a bit of a rumble in my belly, my heart is beating a tad louder, enough to show me I’m alive – and that my purpose is to give you glory with what you’ve given me.
I pray that you show me what I need to change, and good luck with that, because I’m afraid my heart could probably when a spot on HOARDERS these days.
I see cars drive by out the window. I hear the heat tick on here in the house. I have a lump in my throat when I dare myself to be still and look to you. My hair is greasy, I’m weary, and unsure.
Sheets on beds desperately need laundering.
And so do I.
Here I am.
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